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I felt the hit. Immediately, everywhere, glass was breaking, my friends were screaming. My vision captured not much more than blurred lights and hazy images of the people around me. We were in the air, turning, flipping, defying gravity. Then, another hit. Only this hit was more painful as my head was knocked against hard pavement.

The next thing I saw was a fluorescent light bulb shining down on me. Opening my eyes seemed to be taking more work and pain than it should‘ve. In front of me was my mother and my father. That was the first time I had seen them together in years. They were holding each other, another shock. It took me a few minutes to realize where I was and to remember what happened. I heard the sound of a machine in my right ear. I couldn’t move my arms or even my legs. I couldn’t turn my head or open my mouth. I was frozen.

My eyes moved, with a great deal of effort. As my parents turned back to me, they screamed with delight and grabbed a nurse. Shouting that I was awake, my mother ran out of the room to the nurses’ station and my dad came closer to hold my hand. When he stroked my hair, I looked at him. His eyes were the last thing I saw.

I didn’t know where I went inside my mind, but for what seemed like forever, I was in space. I could hear nothing, see nothing. It was like a strange kind of sleep.

When I heard my mom’s voice, I forced my mind to come back to reality. This time, I couldn’t open my eyes. I still couldn’t move. The only thing I could do was listen to everyone talk. I heard my mom crying, to the person I assumed to be a doctor, begging him to save me . The two people talking to her tried to explain that I was gone. I was dead inside. The first time I heard that expression, I tried to open my eyes, scream, anything. I wanted so much to show them that I knew I was going to be fine. I had no way to communicate to the outside world anymore. I didn’t know how to tell everyone that I could hear them and beg them to hold on for just a bit longer. I would always be okay.

“She’s gone, ma’am,” the doctor said.

“You don’t know her. She’s not dead. She’s still in there, somewhere. Do everything you can, please,” I heard my mother’s body hit the floor in a frenzy of sobs.

“Gywn, maybe you should let her go,” was my dad’s response to her. Somehow, I saw that coming. Even in what could be my death, my father had no faith in me. Typical.

“Anthony, she’s going to live. When have you ever known her to give up? We need to get through to her…” My mother’s voice faded into static, then was completely gone. I was out again. I was amidst nothing but blackness. I felt my heart beat quicken, my mind panic. What seemed like seconds later, but may very well have been hours or even a day or two, I opened my eyes. Everything I saw was in third-person. I was looking at myself, my parents, and the two best friends I’d had my whole life: my brothers. I saw Levi, my baby brother, walk up to my bedside and kiss my cheek.

“I love you, sissy,” he said. He held my hand, and I saw a tear fall down onto my stiff hand. I wanted to hug him and tell him how much I loved him. But, I was a spectator right now. Not a participant.

Jordan, my oldest brother, was next. He didn’t say anything other than, “I love you.” He kissed me, and just kind of stared at me for a bit. The doctor came in and told my parents it was time. Jordan didn’t stay. He muttered something about not being able to watch this happen. Levi stayed. My dad stood at the door while my mother and my brother came to the left side of my bed and held my hand together. The doctor unplugged the life support machine, and a few seconds later, I heard a flat line.

Bord,

Ma hiking kami sa Camp Regulus sa Ajuy sa Wednesday. Upod ko dy Joyjoy, Pawla, Jeb kag migo ya na si Paolo. Preho kamo to buhok sg una. hehe Tambok lang to sha galnga gawa. La lang. Bal-an ko kun ari kapa, magustuhan mo gid ni mo. Basi ndi kana gani guro magpuli. Kabukiran to dan, tapos my nine ka busay. Te, mano kada? haha. Kun pde langto kapatindog balay, galing me tag-iya nato ang duta. Skulmate ko pa to na ato sa Japan subong, na boringan pa sha gane sa Japan. Pirte man klase bayi ba. hehe Bdw, gn byu ko fs ni burky gina. hahaha. Wala lang. Nadumduman ko na gnpakilala mko cya sg una sa tex. hehe Excited nagid ko ya bala sa wednesday. Ulihi koni nabatyagan klase excitement, atong paglakat ta sa san jo. Isa to sa pinaka cherished ko na tinion sg kabuhi ko. Bal-an moman na guro a. Antis kodi mag drama, Kamusta kana da? Kunsabagay, sigurado ko mas nami pagid da ang lugar kun din ka subong. Galing la lang da chungki. haha. Malain mana simu galing bord a. Kita ko pictures mo tapos sg baha, sg sa LJ na kamo. Grabe gd to pagniwang mo gali no. Gasakit buot ko sg nakita ku to. Silingan ka na kaon ka mayu po.  Te dira ya? Senxa la ko idea kun me pagkaon da sa heaven ukon ndi nyu na kinanlan magkaon.. hehe la da balot ay? haystt. Ambot a. Ga Ym kami di ni kai2. hehe . la lang. Ato sila Cebu ni tata subong. Me tattoo convention dan. Bord, napangamuyo taka bla pirme. Tani nakalab-ot man simo. Nahidlaw nako simo.  Mas ma express ko mayo lawas ko kun Hiligaynon. Translate ko lang dasun a. hehe Kainchindi kapaman da guro hiligaynon sa langit. Babay bord.