ok so the past few days have just been dreadful, ive had a nervous breakdown like everyday this week, and i have had my exams postponed because I can’t cope with anything like that right now.
ive been cutting most days for the past week, and

daddy even came to see me today, drove all the way [...]

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ok, so tom and i broke up last time, i think it might be the last time as well. its a shame because i do love him, but maybe its for the best. i dont know. im a little confused right now.
plus yesterday all i ate was sweets sweets and more sweets. and some mars [...]

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haha im such a failure. its only 2.15pm and ive already totally fucked it up lol.

i totally forgot my yoghurts go off today and i have 4 of them to eat! il eat 2 today and 2 2mz, theyl be safe for 1 day lol.
and ive had some nuts, and 120 cals of crisps. fucks [...]

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today i have eaten SO FUCKING MUCH! its disgusting. but at least now there’s more weight to lose haha. itl be like when fat people find it really easy to lose weight fast! yay!
tomorrow i will re-start my new plan; its a liquid fast tomorrow. that means il be allowed :
- diet cherryade
- diet coke
- [...]

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ok so i had [100] from earlier.
on top of that ive had :
- fish [70]
- hula hoops [130]
- 2 mini milks [60]
- soup [30]
total [390]
ok so i went over my 300 limit but not too badly. plus ive had a lot of raw carrots and celery which is extra good i suppose its best [...]

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- crisps [70]
- soup [30]
- 2 green teas
- diet cherryade
- raw carrot
- celery
total [100]
am allowed 200 more cals today
lovelove xxx

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today i have eaten sooooo much but its all part of the plan! im eating as much as i can today so that when i start my new plan my metabolism will [hopefully] be slightly improved by todays over-eating.
well it hasnt been horrendous eating, ive had [270] from earlier plus :
- crisps [130]
- hula hoops [...]

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- soup [30]
- celery & marmite
- raw carrot
- small apple
- baked beans and cheese [130]
- cereal [50] i shouldnt have it its full of wheat but i did anyway coz im starting my new plan 2mz lol
- sweets [60] shouldnt have had them either, but oh well!
total 4pm [270]
lovelove xxx

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ok so its 2pm and ive had :
- packs of crisps [100] they have wheat in tho so damnit il prob bloat from them!
- raw carrot
total [100]
lovelove xxx

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ok so after yesterday ive gained! this is fucking ridiculous. 5lbs in 1 day? id have had to eat 17500 cals and not have burnt any to have gained that much!
i know its my period soon, so some of it will be that, and also yesterday i ate SO much wheat which always makes me [...]

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